MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEEEEEEEEAAAAARRRRR: D
Turkey is good.
Turkey is sumptuous.
But turkey 3 days in a row
Can be found quite tedious.
(Notice how sumptuous and tedious rhymes. It’s the Christmas spirit I tell you, it heightens my intelligence.)
Reflections on 2008
I was trapped in church when the clock struck 12 on the fateful day of January 1st 2009. Not one of the most exciting countdowns ever, what with the preacher going overtime and keeping everyone in suspense past the appointed time. The place was literally tension-filled as the second hand ticked its way past 12.00… then 12.01… and he still didn’t stop… 12.02… and he’s changed the topic… 12.03… and the congregation’s fidgeting like a bunch of ruffled hens… 12.04… Pastor stops preaching. He pauses and stares vigilantly at our anxious faces. Our intense interest in his sermon has become rather obvious to him. He throws his hands up in the air and moans, ‘Alright, let’s just get this over with’. People spring to their feet. Even the ageds are suddenly fleetingly quick to stand. ‘HAPPY NEW YEAR’, we bellow, grasping for hands and pumping like automatic machines. Biceps flex with an unexplainable strength. The enthusiasm is overwhelming.
So maybe I should put ‘Do not exaggerate’ as one of my resolutions for this New Year, but the thing is, from the little corner in which I sat during the sermon, I figured that 2008 has really been one of the best years of my life.
Beating PUB in the mocks for year 11 overall was perhaps one of the most satisfactory academic achievements that I’ve ever made, never mind scholarship or any other recognitions.
Belonging to cliques/a clique was new to me. Making friends who made me laugh as much as I have this year was part of that new experience. Meeting new people and daring to actually open my golden mouth to speak is something that’s still rather foreign to me >< It unfortunate that I take a long time to warm up to people, yet in a way, I guess it makes things last longer. There was a time in my life where I had a mental image of myself as a loner who kept to herself and was socially outcast. I knew I was queer but I prefer to think that it lent me an enigmatic quality :P
Another new thing that I noticed happened to me this year was that I stopped wearing my heart on my sleeve. I’ve moved it under my cuffs. I’ve learnt the game of charades and facades. It’s inevitable… wise even. Yet I there’s a part of me that won’t stop wishing for my naivety and innocence to remain intact. Lol.
Losing some of my best friends to distance was another significant marker in my life. I’ve never actually had that happen to me before >< I prefer to do the leaving and waltz my way out of people’s lives before they even realize it. It’s very irresponsible I know, but it causes less heartache for both parties.
Americano, Froggy and even Apple Red’s return(s) were important in that they made me realize that distance doesn’t actually do much damage to friendships as long as you keep in touch. Even if they did, it’s nothing that cannot be overcome, and it actually makes the relationship more precious. What with technology, distances can be spanned within seconds. The only thing can cannot be compensated for would be actually spending time together.
I was trying to think of it from my parents’ perspectives because they do have friends worldwide. My mother’s best friend lives in Canada and they didn’t meet up with each other for 13 years, but when they DID meet, it was like nothing had changed (if you’d ignore the fact that my mother now had three children, and that neither of them were particularly young anymore). Amidst change is constancy. It’s almost as if you could apply proportionality to life-
Time is directly proportional to change. And yet we always have k constant (trust me to introduce math equations to life :P ).
This year had many beautiful moments for me. I was 15 at the beginning, and am now approximately 381 years old. We had a leap year, we had our Olympics, we had our first black President of the USA, I lived the most auspicious day of my life on my birthday, I finished my IGCSEs, I started IB, I started CT, I stopped my lonerism and emoism and have finally entered a semi state of normalism and above all, I’m still me.
(And I love him but that’s only for us writer of whites to share :P )
Maybe 2008 was really the golden year of my life. And I wonder what 2009 has to offer.
posted @ 4:30 AM